My name is Chen Li, 36 years old. I am a pharmacist in Pingdingshan Hospital of Chinese Medicine,Henan province. Now I am  a student in Europe. Falun Gong used China Wenchuan Earthquake to spread rumours, deceive people, interfere the work of rescue and  harm the society. I am willing to tell my sad experience, so that the kind people won`t be deceived by Li Hongzhi and Falun Gong, and get rid of Falun Gong and go back to normal social life.
 
In April 1998, before I graduated from the university, I saw a book called "Falun Gong". I read it carefully and agreed with the views very much. From then on, I entered a complicated and confusing world, which is colourful, fightless and transient, it is a world of Shangri-la. "To study the law, practise Falun Gong and spread the Fa" has become my daily life. I detached  gradually away from the people, the society and the human nature. I sank deeply to the abyss.

In July 1999, after Falun Gong was banned by law,some practitioners persisted in practising Falun Gong. One early morning, I found a few people practising Falun Gong in Zhanhe Park in the city centre secretly, but their movement was not up to standard, so I went on my own initiative to demonstrate and to guide them, I also told them the latest scripture of Li Hongzhi to challenge the law openly. At home, I secretly practised Falun Gong and read Falun Gong books.

I remembered Li Hongzhi said in one of the scriptures, "Other people has called you as a cult, and you are still unmoved", "starting from yourself, to defend Falun Gong is always the duty of Falun Gong disciples for ever." I thought it was the time I went to Beijing to defend Falun Gong, but I was very afraid, because I was fighting against the country. I was in dilemma! I couldn't help, but I thought about becoming a nun, going into the temple to practise Falun Gong. When I went to Nanhua Temple and told the main monks my intention, they did not only ask me an introduction letter from the local government, the certificate from my company and a letter of approval from my family, but also did not approve of me practising Falun Gong there. They wanted me to change to other practise. But all these contradicted with my intention, I went back in despair.

I thought that I had waited Falun Gong for my lives, it was the truth I pursue hard  and I was willing to give up all things in the world to follow the great master. So I handed in the letter of  resignation to the hospital and went to Beijing to appeal to high authority. Outside the State Bureau for Letters and Calls, I complained that Falun Gong was wronged and I spread leaflets and interfered with the working order of the central government institute. I was detained. In the detention, I made up my mind to defend Dafa with my life, if I was alive for one day, Falun Gong would be continued for one day. As long as I was there, so would Dafa!

Out of detention,  the hospital vacated the library, sent three colleagues to help me in order to save me. The leaders of the hospital had heart to heart talks with me in turn and they paid a special attention to the transformation of my mind. During that period of time, I did not make any valuable contribution to the hospital, all I did was to receive. The hospital did not only take care of my expenses, but also paid for the wages of the three colleagues who accompanied me. Because of me, the normal working order of the hospital was disrupted and I hurted the hearts of my colleagues and the leaders deeply. Despite of all these, the hospital did not abandon me. Because of me, my brothers and sisiters were worried all the time, and did not have a moment of rest. Because of me, my mother fell off the stairs, and could not get up and move for a long time, all she did was crying. My auntie who looked after me since I was baby had come from thousands of miles away to Henan and tried to persuade me. But the more they said, the more I felt Falun Gong in my mind growing stronger; The more they said, the more persistent I became. I thought myself was well tested; instead, I thought they were pitiful. Look at me, abandoned all the normal feeling, deserted all the worldly success, how worry-free I was! My family was very disappointed, they did not speak to me any more. During that time, I always went to other people's house to look for food, sometimes I could only have one or two meals a day, sometimes I had to be empty stomached. But I thought, even if I was starving to death, I would not give up Falun Gong.

After reading the scripture of "Towards Consummation", I got the train to Beijing again to defend the Fa. Just after I got off the train I was stopped by the policeman, and sent into detention house. In the detention house, the few die-hards of Falun Gong studied the law(Fa), practised the law every day, from morning till evening, whenever we had the chance, we practised till we felt dizzy and blacked out, and we practised till we were in a complete mess and terrible state. When the police came to search the room, we would think of all the way to hide the books. If they took away the books, we will protest on hunger. Later, I wrote down the scripture that I have recited, and handed them over the other practitioners to continue practise. I ignored the law. I thought in my heart that if I continued practising, I would soon achieve consummation.

After the "Tiananmen Self-Burning" incident, I took it as the "last test", I still believed that "persisting in practising the law, viewing the sorrow and sadness in peace". Then I was sent to female labour camp to be reeducated. In the labour camp, all the kind and warm words, all the reasonable persuasive education from the police of discipline had influenced me and touched my heart. Especially when they talked me through the contradiction of the law (Fa) Li Hongzhi stated, my long locked mind was reopened, my mind began to sober up. In recent years, I had always been waiting for Li Hongzhi to come from heaven, waiting for "flying into heaven in day light", waiting for the splendid scene that the gods in heaven open up the door of the three realms and appear in front of me in dragon chariot, waiting for all the bad people be destroyed by the gods. How filthy and hostile are those! With this selfish and filthy heart, how can I fly into heaven? When I think deeper, I understand the reason why I insist on believing in Falun Gong and Li Hongzhi. Isn't it because I expect to enjoy the happiness, longevity, and the eternity of heaven. Isn't it because I am afraid of going to hell, and afraid of being perished for both mind and body? All in all, it's just because of one word, "selfishness".
 
In order to practise Falun Gong, I gave up my favourite profession, deserted my good future, and abandoned all the things in the world. What I paid out for this, is not only my life, but also the energy of my life, the essence of my life, and everything and all things of my life. It is Li Hongzhi who has ruined my reputation and buried my youth. When I was obsessed with Falun Gong, it was my homeland and my countrymen who tolerated me with their broad mind; it was the education which saved me. When I was in university in England, and handed in my result sheet for my home land and people, I felt greatly relieved, I shed tears, but I have jumped out of the odd circle. I just saw the evil nature of Li Hongzhi. I saw how he proficiently used his words to disguise evil into kindness. Liers will always be liers, tearing down the disguise he put on, his evil nature has already exposed to the world. His fallacies and absurdities would eventually disappear in the world. Eventually in doing this, he would lift a rock only to drop it on his own feet. His name will be fixed on the column of shame of China nation.

Today, after ripping apart Li Hongzhi's hypocritical veil, I have felt my eyes opened up and my body and heart have felt a lot easier. I feel the sky is so charming and dazzling; the sunshine is so golden and glittering. Respect and promote science, fighting against cult is my duty!

Finally, I would like to remind all the people who are obsessed with Falun Gong, that Falun Gong is a cult. Please come to your sense quickly!

(Facts.org.cn, August 7, 2008)